Forcing yourself to behave unnaturally is a crime, says
OSHO.
Seeker: I don’t feel
like indulging in physical intimacy; I love meditation and dancing much more, although it is difficult to accept
this. Is something wrong with me?
Osho: Nothing is wrong
with you. Repression of sex is evil, but if sex is not a natural desire in you,
to force it will be a repression. There are people who are forcing their
natural desire for sex in trying to be celibate; they are going against their
nature. And if you don’t have any inclination towards sex, forcing it will be
going against your nature; it will be the same kind of crime.
A sanyasin needs to be
natural. You have to listen to your own body, your own instincts, your own
intuition, and follow it. You are not to do anything against your nature. If
you like to be alone, and enjoy meditating...that’s what everybody else is
trying, but first they are trying to get finished with sex so that they can
enjoy being alone. You are in a better position; you don’t have to pass through
hell. You have already passed through it somehow; perhaps in your past life.
You are out of hell; now don’t try to get into the dark tunnel again.
Even the people to
whom I say, “Don’t repress sex,” are not being told to remain always sexual. In
fact, repression of sex keeps you always sexual. Once you have lived it totally,
you are finished with it. And the sooner you are finished the better, because
then you can sit silently without being bothered by the need of anybody else as
a companion. You are enough unto yourself, and that is the most important thing
for a meditator — the enoughness of aloneness.
But I can understand
your problem. Here you must be seeing everybody bringing problems about sex,
about their fights. Somebody is completely satisfied; that is his boredom.
Somebody is not satisfied; he wants more satisfaction; that is his problem.
Somebody is not feeling boredom; that is his problem. Listening to all these
problems, naturally anybody will get worried: ‘What is my problem?’ If you
don’t have any problem, it certainly means something is wrong with you.
Nothing is wrong with
you. Just enjoy being yourself, your meditation, your silence,
and let these people pass through their darkness. One day they will all come
out of the tunnel; then you can greet them. But, just seeing that everybody is
in the tunnel, fighting, shouting...and you are sitting outside the tunnel in
the light,
in silence; don’t be worried that something seems to be wrong with you too.
All meditators are in
the tunnel. Nobody is meditating...but they have all come here to meditate;
only I am meditating. Let them play whatever style they want; you simply don’t
get distracted from your meditation. You are perfectly right. And all these
people are trying to reach to your position. You don’t have to descend into
their troubles, into their problems.
You are blessed. It
rarely happens, what is happening to you. It happens only because of your past
life; there is no other explanation. In your past life you must have been
meditating; you must have been with a master; you must have come to a point
where sex became meaningless, where the need of the other drops, when you
became enough unto yourself and your loneliness changed into aloneness; hence
in this life you are carrying all that you have achieved in your past life.
It is because of such
experiences that all three eastern religions accepted the idea of
reincarnation. Hinduism,
Jainism, and Buddhism have a very logical scientific explanation: that you are
carrying a quality that you achieved in your past life. Nothing
is lost. Once you have achieved it, it goes on with your consciousness into new
lives, into new bodies.
Freedom From The Past, courtesy: Osho International
Foundation, www.osho.com
above the attachment to this body.
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